lately
Lately, Lord, I really feel like I'm letting You down. Again, and again, and again, I've let You down, even though You've showered me so much blessings lately. A million times. And even right after I've sinned, You still forgive me and continue to bless me. What the heck am I doing then?
God, Your grace is just so amazing. I can't stand it, I can't stand the way I'm abusing Your grace. Lord, may You really destroy me, and let me be a new creation. Why is the sinful nature just so ANNOYING. God, Father, I need You to be here. Though I'm ashamed, You still ask me to look at You and talk to You.
Father, what a useless son I am. And how great and loving You are.
stuffs i've learnt lately.
a little while ago earlier in service today, I've learnt wad is meant exactly by finding strength in God. It's not simply counting on God for strength to do stuffs, but the fact that you find strength because you know God will be pleased if you do such a thing. For example, to love and care for others even if people don't appreciate it or instead bite back. But you know that you'll be back there, again, because you know God did that for you, and hence you'll be back no matter what.
I also realised God has been trying to speak to me about a certain upcoming incident when I read 2 Samuel 22. My Rock. my God. Thanks, for Your warning, for Your affirmation.
beyond intentions
Hey God, here I am.Cui.
Sometimes, I'm always getting owned. Because I wanna do more, it backfired on me. Father, I know this is a lesson for me. A lesson that I really need to be taught in because I'd probably never ever think of it this way. Perspectives, intentions, and lastly the course of actions, the stand.
Maybe it's the same as my issue with insensitivity. I need to feel it before I can do anything. Likewise, perhaps, with this issue. Maybe You want me to know, from the carer's side, and from the cared's side. Then maybe I can understand what intentions should become instead. Lord, if that's Your plan for me, I pray that You go ahead with it.
Lord, I know that You're doing this. Because You first loved. I'll show Your love that comes from You as well.
flame
Refiner's Fire
Purify my heart
Let me be as gold and precious silver
Purify my heart
Let me be as gold, pure gold
Refiner's fire
My heart's one desire
Is to be holy
Set apart for You Lord
I choose to be holy
Set apart for You my Master
Ready to do Your will
fire
Lately, Lord I know that I'm missing that fire for you. That fire that really wants to make me keep running for you non-stop. I don't know if it's the heavy workload, my own attitude, the stress that keeps coming again and again. I really don't know oh Lord, but all I know that this cannot go on. You're my Saviour, and I'm giving you half-hearted effort. REALLY, NO.
Lord, be that fire in me, and re-light my heart again, to really continue going on for You. For all my weaknesses, I'm only strong when I'm with You, and You with me. God, my Lord, won't you again set me on fire for You? Not a red fire, but a blue flame, the hottest and strongest there is.
I want my life to be a testimony to Your glory.
Who am I - Casting Crowns
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours
-thanks to some koh who told me about this song :D
catching God's Spirit
woosh I just talked to someone really really seh. And honestly, after what she said, I just thought that WOW. That's what I really want to do right now!
Catching God's Spirit. Well there's a difference between doing something for God out of obligation, responsibility and doing something for God out of love for Him. Honestly, but a few months back, I've difficulty doing things because I love God. This really caused much problems with me, such as being unnatural, can't get motivated etc etc. Eventually, truth be told I can't do much for God. Though I've not really caught God's Spirit yet, I feel like I'm eventually starting to sniff it! xD
What she said was true la! Some people, me included, tend to read the bible with the focus of praying for a verse with themselves. And sometimes these people complain of not being able to hear God during QT, or getting verses that are totally irrelevant to their problems/day. But I think that the focus of this is wrong somewhat, because the Bible is God's Word. From it, much as we can find verses that apply to us on that particular day, the point of it is that from it we can learn of the God who loved us so. We can know so much more about Him, likes, dislikes, character, etc. And only when we know Him more, can we honestly love Him with all our heart, all our soul, all our mind and all our strength. And only then can we see the world through God's eyes and have our hearts broken by the things that break His.And only then can we catch His Spirit, can we honestly do things out of love for God, love for people.
I wanna be passionate for God, regardless of my situation. I wanna do His work enthusiastically anywhere, anywhen, anyone. I wanna catch Your Sipirit, Oh Lord. And I wanna thank You for blessing me in this, I shall use the word troublesome, times. I will definitely continue to trust and grow in You!
